Time Machine

What if you had the opportunity to turn back time, do your life all over again, with the knowledge that you have today. Would you do it? Would you make different choices, or are you happy with what you've achieved and with where you are today?

I would like to choose all of the above.

I feel incredibly blessed with my amazing job as an air-hostess, traveling the word, meeting people and experiencing so many different cultures. While that is all very fulfilling in many ways, I can't help but wonder what my life would have been like if I had the guts to tell everyone what was really on my mind; what I kept wondering and dreaming about for so long. Secret revealed in 5,4,3,2,1...

I can already hear how this conversation would go down.. "Mom, Dad, I wanna join the circus." Yep, that was the dream and still is a little bit... You may think I'm crazy, but have you ever been to a circus? The costumes, animals, acrobats, magicians, dancers and comedians; what's not to love?

Everything about it is fun and magical! I have always had a great love for performing arts, from being a pretty little ballerina when I was a little girl to a teenager with amazing drama skills (or was that just puberty?) And definitely the costumes! You get to play a different character every other day, letting your emotions run free, from the utmost happy to crazy clown and scary lion tamer, just letting yourself go! Speaking of animals, that would be the best part. I'm a big animal lover, they bring so much joy to this world and petting a lion or tiger for an every day job, not too shabby.

Back to reality. Today I am a successful working girl, I stand on my own two feet, pay my bills and have a wonderful relationship with an amazing man. My friends and family support me in whatever I do, and I couldn't be happier with where I am right now. 


Seems like you will find your way to where ever you were meant to go, and do what you were meant to do, even if life has to kick you a little bit in the butt to get there. Besides, I do get to pet tigers while on holiday!

If you could go back and change anything in your life? Would you?

My Best Friend, My Rock, My Mentor

I'm kicking of today's post with a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY shout out to my amazing mom.

Today we are all celebrating her 59th birthday, though when you see her, you're more likely to ask, "Is that your sister?" Yep, she looks amazing, but even more than that, she's got the most beautiful soul.

I grew up carefree, with a loving family, many friends and with lots of support. As I grew older, life started throwing obstacles my way, sometimes easy to overcome and sometimes it took a few weeks to pick myself up and move forward. Like any mom, my mom's always been there for me with a tight hug and words of care and wisdom. It wasn't until the winter of 2008 that I truly understood and experienced the extent of my mom's love and support for me.

After graduating from high school, I moved to Johannesburg (South Africa) to be part of a Performing Arts School. We were called ACTS (Arts Christian Training School). We toured South Africa, performing dance and drama productions, reaching out to the youth of South Africa on a Christian basis. 

We were a team of 30 students every year, trained for 3 months and then hit the road. A lot of hard work went into those productions, lead by an incredible artist named John Norman. From dancing, directing, writing and managing our group, he was probably the most inspirational person I have ever come across in my life. It was with his amazing passion and relationship with God, that every production that was written by him, was a big success. 

After almost 3 years traveling with the group, it was time to spread my wings and apply for jobs and enter the real world. The first interview I ever did landed me this great opportunity to work as an air-hostess. But my life came to an abrupt halt one day when I was still at home, getting ready for my life abroad. I received a heartbreaking phone call that the ACTS group on tour had a massive car accident, and 5 of my amazing friends and colleagues had passed away. Sadly John was one of them. My best friend, my rock, my mentor.
 

From that day on, my life changed dramatically as it felt like everyone I loved and cared for so deeply was slipping away from me. I couldn't understand why it happened, why all the kindest souls were taken away at such a young age?

That's when my family really stepped in for support. I was never alone, always had a shoulder to cry on. But needless to say, I was heartbroken, with so many questions left unanswered. 

I had a dream one night; I was on tour, back when everyone was happy, laughing and discussing our roles in our next production. Suddenly we collided with another car. We came to a halt and I remember trying to find my friends. To find John, and make sure he was okay. I found him. In the distance he was standing with a beautiful white suit. Calm, beautiful, angelic. I ran and asked him if he was okay, asked if he was hurt, and he took me in his arms and said:  "I am okay, you have to let go now".

I woke up out of breath, scared and confused, so I grabbed my Bible, flipped it open randomly and it happened to open at John 3 verse 13, it read: "I have many things to write to you. But I do not want to tell you these things by a letter. I hope to see you soon. When I come, we can talk together."

I found peace. I realized I wasn't in control of what happened. With a lot of support, time, cries, I found that a broken heart can be mended. I will never truly get over losing incredible friends, but i've learned how to deal with loss."May God give you calm in yourself. The friends here send their greetings to you. Please greet each of our friends there for me."

My entire family have been incredible, with so much support, especially my mom. She's the one I call before and after every flight. The one that's up until 4 am to speak a word of courage. Loving me unconditionally, helping me make life decisions and always up for a good laugh. She picked me up and brought me back with so much love. I look up to her as she is the most incredible person to walk this planet.

So, here's to Mom, The strongest woman I know with so much joy in her heart! Happy Birthday! May your loving heart rub off on those around you, may you be blessed for all the kindness you give to others. I love you so much. My best friend, my rock my mentor, my mom!